if yesterday's lessons were short, today's were gherkins, which apparently looks like a guy with syphilis if you ask me. very thought provoking, not skills based. i was delirious on how much money i've wasted on MC. lol. no offence. i was actually motivated and not just HIGH for once. anyhow.

i've also got with me a proper academic path planned out this time. and holy molly its actually a feasible and motivating thingy. first step. conquer O lvls. then set off to MJ. settle for nothing less than a scholarship in SMU or if God's with me, Oxford, Harvard.

thats just the big things. its the little things that makes life meaningful, like this really touching story of a mother's love. (better than the father and the son at MC o.o)

well cutting it short,

this day has been quite the paradigm shift. new perspectives to look from.
new sense of hope and new dreams. it was inspiring and spurring me to take actions as amin says,

words are cheap.

the most powerful thing i heard that night. was this.

"how can you let some people believe in you with all thier heart soul and mind, showing it in thier hard work to provide for you, while you don't even believe in yourself?"

it hit me like a slap in the face. Now. i will probably never look at my parents the same way again.

i guess i'm a very emotional person. i've thought of how i can use that to my advantage/ whatver. But i guess i have a better reason to live and work hard now, to be living for others. =)
i long to be an inspirer, someone who lives beyond himself for others with an unselfish attitude. And i don;t want to wait till i marry the perfect girl and have kids. i want to start now.


then it starts now then.
don;t stop. never stopping. till we're all sitting at the coffee shop singing ten green bottles, hanging from the wall =)