first day at the job..
wow.
three words,
what the fuck.

okay.
firstly, i'm seeing bugs flying past me hlf way and poping into z-space.
secondly,
little nervous, making stupid mistakes like "clam powder" when its "chouder."
embarrase myself will ya.
thirdly,
a customer caught a cockroach for me, handing it to me in a a servitte holding up his fingers in a shh manner.. how awesome. wow

walked to Qiji kinda shagged. some of them collegues are nice and friendly. some just pretend, totally judging every little step i take. thats freaking annyoing. esp one of em.

how old are you jason
"16 going on 17"
ahh no wonder.. nvm nvm *flicks wrists

ate qiji..sat next to a girl who was throwing tantrums..lol
played sims 2 again
lol
its really reatarded
its really hooking, like @#$@.


well. welcome back to jason;s reflections /deeper thoughts than the thoughts that usually run through his mind.


okay. EVERYONE has a motive.no shit.how deep that motive runs.. that different.how deep a person can read a motive..thats just outofth world.now.the usual goes like thisthe more i know you,the more i trust youthing isthe more you know the personthe more you just can;t trust the person.because?motives.but hey,i could be wrong. whooo knows?God knows.well.here we go againcircle of dooooom and confusion.so whats to keep a promise a promise?its really special,you can break it without touching ita thread of the past?truth?friendship.bond.prehaps..but what if that bond does;nt mean as much as to the guarenteer?what if life was just a play?an actto hide what's within our constant masking of this web of lies..questions.what for?just do it.lol.ahh but you forget.many a mistake i'vestumbled over..i have tried to learn them all.but who is trustworthy?who is not?will you deny greed roaches over our little buble ofsanity?entangles..engulfes..it is the black widow that spins the web,to satisty our carnal instincts.

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oh fuck i'm messed up.


lol.

sorry dark side of jason,
you're jsut screwed.

too many lies have been told in this world.
Only God is soverign,
yet i'm the fool in not trusting him.

so where do you think man's place is in my heart?
especially you my brother.
we've got so much history, no?