its been awhile. as i thought.

.. Justin's geting sleepier.. and i.. started playing games again.

PRAY screams God.. but i jus dun have the heart to seek him now.. i never had commitment for prayer. its a time of new change.. with the power of the gospel. moving God's hands.. to do his will... yet.. where am i in his kingdom.. where am i in prayer.. lord save me.. keep me afloat.. start me on my narow way to you.

oh praise god. =) how blessed am i, to be a witness. mircacles.. hes done it all. blessed is he who lives in me. bless you lord.amen.what time is it? truly. what time is it? the coming of the lord? or simply a time to do my homework? what is it lord?therefore guide me. for seek and you shall find. so much blessing within our daily lives.. if only we could aprehend evreything, and appreciate.. we could be so overwhelmed..

haha. peace of the lord..[thankyoufather.]


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still looking at her everyday makes my spirit feel weird.. haha.. people have been complaining about me not posting about girls.. whatever la.. hahas. too muh idistraction in the world i guess. the word "stead" is so common in the class it can practically be found in the n2 vocab list. haha. it's even worse than e4..the horny devils. hahas. maybe..too much thinking.. just wanted out of impluse to wanna stead with someone.. then happen to see her or something..yet... who am i kidding? haha.

gosh i wana speak like lee sien loong man. gd malay, chinese and perfect english. hahas. i have the potential. so why not.empowered by GOD. release my faith in this.. haha.

lost.. what a depressing word... being lost on youself in well, bad. no direction.. aimlessly loiterring and wasting time.. whereas.. being lost in GOd.. how great is that faith.. belethkalijilath. happy are the people of the lord.. yes, i find faith in it.. because i;ve never found a reason to be depressed at all, after the years i;ve been with him. writing abt depression.. makes everyone depressed. xD it;s like.. an attention seeker.. that says.." oh.. pity me, give me attention" haha.who can i blame? everyone wants attention, lest we become lonely and perish alone in self doubt..

whats worng with the world today? can i not care for another as freely as the people could in the past? caring for another means "sex" now is'nt it. haha..so screwed up. so so soo screwed. xD care. concern. dun like it, then care back lor. untill you find out , the effort you put in, just to care for that person..

haha.. my minds screwed up too.. i see the word care i think about the partnership with justin. hahas. its funny. i dunno why just so obessed in another person's sucess in life. let alone the fact he's a guy. perhaps its God;s love.. its finally gotten to me.. hahahaha..

dun wry yea justin.. i;ll support you all the way.. i won sleep in class..(LOL.) and.. i'll pay attention(so that you can copy?lol.) obviously the person u mentionin abt carin too much is not me la.. but.. even if u get scik of me pestering you to study.. well.. you hae to freaking bear with it lor. HAH.

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gonna bring my freaking guit to schl later.. damn it;s 1 already.. need to sleep.. dun want to sleep. sian...

`living my live,anew but all over again.