man.life has jus been pasin by ever so slowly..i want to burn the stupid mocking bird song..argh.anyway..feelin pretty much miserable again..freaky u know..i heard the stupid fuker again..i mean..i was already tested in me faith ain't i?my faith ain't tht much..but still..why is he here again?i look around myself..i see people..people with great names...great lives..great futures..i question myself..what is god doing to me..?i guess i look to god as me daddie..dad buy me a mockin bird?no?aww.it's kinda funny,how i can make friends with so many great people when i'm just sittin in this empty house,kinda no future..

blogger rawks to the core.even though nobdy ever reads ur blogs..letting eveything out o somebody who never judges u..never tells u what to do..makes everything a little better..then again..there's god..but i guess one day he has to judge us all >.<

it jus came to me..i have to stand up for myself..in fact..i just added samuel into me msn acc..samuel's a national runner..i seriously dunno why..god wht Are u DOinG?gettin to know these people is u know..great and all..but why..?but yea..i found out conan's reason for bein..i know tht conan does'nt read my bog anyway..haha.but jus wanna say..i dun think i should be treated like that.seriously..

yea..maybe i guess jst talking to people like daniel would make me feel like i'm low crap..and i should do somethin about it..maybe i should jus put a blind fold..go bak in time..no point havin friends..i can stand up for myself..i gess i would'nt hate my friends of cours..but i would jsu shut myself up ..cuz the dark place suddenly looks so comforting..maybe in tht dark hole i can grow and become great someday..untill someone comes along and pulls me out again..